The older I get the more I realize that days go by faster.
Experiences fly by just enough for you to take a picture, and next thing you know the year is almost over.
Everyone always told me before Ian was born to be careful because time flies by so fast.
I would just laugh, roll my eyes, and assume I know everything like usual.
But I was wrong.
The next thing I know my little man is turning seven months old and I’m left wondering how it all went by so fast.
How my favorite track season ended.
How my little man is so close to crawling.
How some of my favorite kids will be graduating soon.
How I am inching closer and closer to 30.
Okay….maybe that was a bit dramatic but you get my point?
When I was in my early twenties time stood still. Breakups were the end of the world, work lasted forever, and tough workouts felt like they were going to kill me.
Now at 27, I’m left begging the hand on the clock to slow down.
Last night I was watching my son inches away from crawling and had this crazy thought, that there will be a time when my husband and I think to ourselves about when he couldn’t crawl.
That we’ll look at each other and say..
Remember when he couldn’t crawl.
Remember when he was so small he could fall asleep on our chest.
Remember when he couldn’t talk.
That these moments happening now, will be memories sooner than I can realize. That I’ll look back at these times in five years and think about how they just felt like yesterday.
I do that a lot.
Think about how just five years ago I was a senior in College about to embark on life.
How I swore that I knew everything, that my boyfriend at the time was the best thing ever, and how my parents knew nothing.
I was wrong.
Just as much as I was wrong about what I thought I knew, I was wrong about time moving slow.
That has been my theme this month.
Time moving too fast.
Not enough time to get things done.
Making the best of the time you have.
Time, Time, Time.
The older I get the more I value time. More than I ever thought I would. When you’re younger you feel like you’re stuck in one spot forever, or that your biggest problem is so much bigger than it actually is.
But now that I’m getting older I realize that’s not the case.
Time doesn’t stand still, it goes by so fast. It’s so important to stop in the moment and remember everything about where you are and what you’re doing. Remember the people you’re with, the way you feel, and the sounds that you hear.
Remember it all.
I was so bummed out at the beginning of the month when I realized the track season was almost over.
I couldn’t believe my little guy was already seven months old.
I can’t believe it’s almost June and in a couple of weeks I have to see some of my favorite kids graduate.
I tried my best to really remember everything and everyone I was with in those moments, those moments that would soon be memories.
Those moments that I’ll look back on when my Freshman are Seniors and I’ll wonder how four years went by so fast.
Or when Ian’s has his first day of school and all I can think about was when he couldn’t even crawl yet.
Time has a funny way of sneaking up on you when least expect it, kind of like June did to me this month.
But I don’t hate it.
I’m excited to keep making memories and enjoying the moments I’m in.
I like time.
Here’s some other things that I’ve liked this month..
My new camera.
Family walks at the park.
Sex and the City.
Not buying coffee as much.
Hurricane by Luke Combs.
I appreciate the month of May. I appreciate the great moments that led to memories, and the times that I wish time would have stood still. I appreciate all of the times I stopped to take a deep breath and really take in the moment as I was in it.
So thank you May.
Thank you for teaching me a lesson that I thought I had down.
Thank you for giving me so many memories.
Thank you for being so good to me.
Next time I write this we will be half way through the year, and that blows my mind.
I look forward to the next half of the year, but for now I’m going to try and really think about the moment I’m in. Appreciate everything and every one.
Soundtrack to May 2017:
Quote of the month:
“Do more than just exist.”