I’ve talked about it several times before.
The summer of 2013.
It was a pivotal time in my life.
A time where I was lost.
And a time where I found myself.
A time where I started a new adventure.
And met the love of my life.
It was the start to finding who I really was and loving myself to the fullest.
It started with reading a book.
The Fault in Our Stars by John Green.
I didn’t really read up until that point.
Honestly I didn’t have the attention span for it.
But I had found myself in a place where I had lots of spare time and nothing to fill it with.
I decided to pick up this book that I heard was going to be a movie soon.
I had heard so many things about it and decided maybe this would be a good way to fill my time.
Little did I know that it would be the start to my road of self discovery.
Once I started reading this book I couldn’t stop.
I’ve always heard people say that when it came to reading.
They would start a book and literally not be able to put it down.
That the book was that good.
This is how this book was for me.
I would stay up late just to read.
I even took it to my job when we had down time and read.
I finished it in two days.
Which for me was huge.
The way that John Green wrote made it so easy for me to take in everything.
The tale of love and loss put my entire life into perspective.
It made me fall in love with myself and see my life from a new point of view.
A friend of mine, who was going through a difficult time, asked me to borrow it after I was finished.
He told me that it also changed his life.
He was going through a weird time and was lost himself. It gave him a brand new perspective.
We both bonded over it.
A month or so later he gave me a signed copy of it, and it’s one of my favorite things.
I made my mom read it and she loved it as well.
We went to see the movie together and I started crying at the opening credits.
The book that changed me was coming to life.
I tried reading other books by John Green, and they were really good.
But nothing got me like this book did.
I remember the night I finished it, I was at work.
I walked to the bathroom and locked myself in a stall.
I couldn’t stop crying.
I had invested so much of myself into this book.
It hit me so hard.
From that moment on I was different.
I read more.
Found joy in everything that I could.
Took more selfies.
Found the beauty in my solitude.
From that moment on I was hopeful.
Hopeful that things would turn around.
That if I started living the life that I knew I wanted things would happen.
Things would fall into place.
I can’t put my finger on my favorite line of the book, or the exact moment that I knew I was reading something special.
It was the entire thing.
All 317 pages.
The relationship between Augustus Waters and Hazel Grace Lancaster gave me hope that my days would get better.
It made me take the plunge into loving myself so that I could fully love others.
I feel like books can do that to you.
They can make you forget.
They can allow you to lose yourself in something.
Giving you this idea that things will get better.
That you’ll be okay.
It feels weird to say out loud.
That a book made for young adults could change the life of a 23 year old.
But it did.
This book is something that’ll I’ll always hold near to my heart.
The book that started it all.
The reason my life took a turn for the better.
If you get a chance you should read it.
You won’t regret it.