Things I’ve Realized

Yesterday marked the halfway point on my 27th year of life. The 27th year of me doing things right, doing things wrong, and not having any idea where to start. How I’ve learned so many lessons in my most recent years, some good, some not so good, some life changing, and some I wished I knew earlier in life. I feel like your late 20’s are the years where you start to have those “ah-ha” moments. The moments where some of your life questions get answered and you feel like you’re getting a pat on the back from life. I started thinking of those moments that I’ve had, those things I’ve come to terms with at 27 and a half years of life.

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I can’t stay up past 11:30 PM- That my friends, is being generous. I’m lucky if I stay up past ten on most nights. I’ve always thought that I was more of a morning person, but in the recent months I’ve realized that I’m 100 percent correct. This has some to do with being a new mom but it was that way before as well. I’ve had nights where I plan to stay up late enough to watch Saturday Night Live or Jimmy Fallon. I would turn on all of the lights, go get a sugary coffee drink, and do whatever else I could think of to stay up. I would literally fall asleep right before the show started every single time. I’m not a night owl, never will be.

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I can’t please everyone- I’ve tried for many years with this one. I like making as many people as I can happy and I like to make sure everyone gets what they want. That’s tiring to say the least. It also sets you up for failure when you can’t make someone happy or when you upset them. It took me a few attempts to realize that no matter how much I try I can’t control the feelings of others. It’s not up to me if they’re happy with me or not and I have to be okay with that.

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I love Pizza- I’ve really grown to love Pizza. I’ve always liked it, because hello I’m normal, but I’ve found a new love for it the last couple of years. I think it started when Jason and I went to New York for our honeymoon. We found this amazing pizza place and a piece of my heart will forever be there. This pizza gave me a whole new love for that beautiful dough topped with delicious cheese and sauce.

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I have to pick and choose my battles- In case you didn’t know, I’m stubborn **Cue my family saying yupppp** and you can tell rather easily. I’ve always been the type of person to tell you when I don’t agree with you or when I’m mad at what you’re doing. If I didn’t like it, you could tell. Whether it was an eye roll or a disgusted sigh. I’ve come to realize that I can’t always do this, especially as an adult. I’m going to piss the wrong people off and it’ll lead to bad outcomes. Don’t get me wrong, if you’re passionate about something or have a strong belief in something don’t stop. Never give up your beliefs. But is it worth getting in an argument that involves your close friend and possibly having them upset with you. There are ways to discuss things that don’t have to result in arguments.

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I am Buddy the Elf- I love Christmas. I could go on and on about how much I love Christmas. November 1st is when I press play on the Christmas music and start spreading the cheer. I’ve met people in the last couple of years who have told me to my face how dumb I am for loving Christmas so much, as early as I do, but I don’t care. It’s something I take so much joy in and I won’t let people crush my holiday spirit.

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My gut is usually right- If I think something’s wrong, I need to speak up. If I have a bad feeling in my stomach, I need to do something about it. Trusting your gut is sometimes the best thing you can do. I’ve had moments where I’m sitting there thinking to myself “this isn’t right” and I didn’t speak up. Your gut will tell you if you’re in the wrong or not, if you have a bad feeling you should act on it.

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Candle shopping is one of my favorite past times- The 2 for 22 candle sale at Bath and Body Works gives me life. I have to smell every single candle individually and really think about which candle I’m going to buy. I could be having the worst day ever, but I know that all I have to do is walk into a Bath and Body Works and my day can be fixed instantly.

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There’s nothing How I Met Your Mother can’t fix- Everyone has a TV Show that makes you laugh. A show where you feel emotionally involved in the fake lives of the characters, for me it’s How I Met Your Mother. I started watching it a couple of years ago and I’ll never look back. I know that if I’m having a bad day, I need some background noise for cleaning, or if I’m just bored this show will boost my spirits one Ted Mosby bad relationship at a time.

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It’s possible for your whole world to be 20 something pounds and covered in drool- I love my friends, family, and husband, but there’s a special love I have for my son. No matter what is happening in my life I know that at the end of the day he’ll be happy to see me. He’ll be there smiling and clapping his hands at anything and everything. Even when he throws his little fits I can’t get enough of him. my whole world is locked into one little person and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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I’m doing something right- I put a lot of pressure on myself, to do everything right and be as perfect as I can be. When things go wrong I take it personally. Sometimes I feel like I keep screwing things up. It’s normal. But there are little times where I’m reminded that I’m doing just fine. Last Wednesday I got a text from my dad saying he heard our song on the radio (Whitney Houston’s I wanna dance with somebody) and that he thought of me. I see him almost every day and talk to multiple times a day, yet one song made him think of me. It was my little reminder that I must be doing something right.

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Drake feels.

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Do you have a certain song that just puts you in a good mood? Any song in particular or artist that just gets you feeling like your true self? No matter what kind of day you’re having you can just put your headphones in and drown out the world to that one album that makes you feel good. For me it’s Drake.

I got into his music the summer of 2010. I had only heard “Best I Ever Had” a couple of times and I was in the need for some new music. I searched iTunes for new music and his “Thank Me Later” album had just come out so I downloaded it.

I sat in my favorite rocking chair (because at heart I am a grandma) and plugged in my headphones, I listened to the entire album from start to finish and was sold. There was just something about his music and his lyrics that got me hooked. Yes, some lyrics aren’t the most appropriate lyrics in the world, but most of them just flow together so perfectly. I got to the point where I could, and still can, recite every lyric to every song on that album.

I would listen to it on the long bus rides to meets and it put me in the best mood, and really got me pumped up. There was one track meet my senior year where my coach accidentally entered me in the wrong race. I had gotten there at eight in the morning for a race at eleven and ended up not racing till four in the afternoon. I sat down under the bleachers and listened to Drake for most of those eight hours, by the time I was ready to race I was in such a relaxed and motivated mood. I got on the track and won my first ever race at Western.

I associate Drake’s music with track and cross country, with trips to meets starting out the windows at the trees passing. With feeling heartache and motivation, along with the most confidence in the world. When I listen to Drake I go back to summer of 2010 when I was really getting into my grove and really feeling myself.

Yes I know, I’ve written 382 words on why I love Drake, but I do and I love his music, and it will never fade. There is something about your favorite artist that puts you in some kind of mood and lifts your spirits.

I had a weird start to my day yesterday. It was the first day I didn’t drive and take my son to day care, my husband did. I felt super lost running around feeling like I was late for work and like I was missing something. I got to work and put my coffee on top of my car while I got stuff out and next thing I know it’s all over the ground and all over my shoe. I felt behind at work and had a lot piling up on my plate.

It’s always the small things that seem to add up and mess with you. They make you seem like you’re having a bad day when in reality it’s really just a few bad hours.

I ended up getting coffee with my sister on our lunch break, picked up my adorable smiling little boy from daycare, got to see my dad, got some delicious Valentine’s Day treats from my mom, and came home to exchange Valentine ’s Day presents with my fantastic husband. Jason made some tacos while we watched Jeopardy and New Girl, overall it was just how I needed to spend my night. After a weird start to my day I was reminded how wonderful my life is, and even though the little things can throw you off..they can also make you feel so much better.

You might be wondering..Megan what in the world does this have to do with Drake?

I’m getting there, trust me.

I’ve always been extremely proud of myself for being able to associate certain memories with a song or artist.

Luke Bryan always brings me back to the first summer I met my husband.

Taylor Swift’s speak now album reminds me of commuting to Western for three years and singing every lyric as loud as I could with my sister by my side.

And Whitney Houston’s “I wanna dance with somebody” will always remind me of my dad.

Music brings you back to a certain time of memory of your life that you associated with it, and that’s what Drake does for me. His music brings me back to the time where I first started listening to his music and really started to develop my confidence. All I have to do is put on any of his albums and I will instantly turn into this lyrical gangster you never knew existed.

Don’t believe me? Ask anyone who knows me well.

I woke up feeling the usual Wednesday blues. I did not want to get up and kept hitting snooze on my alarm clock. Once I eventually got up and moving I made the conscious effort to make it a good day by doing all of the little things I love.

I watched an episode of The West Wing.

I ate my oatmeal.

Drank my peppermint coffee.

Took Ian to day care.

I got to work and had several things I had to get started on right away. I looked over to my left and saw my headphones in their usual spot and decided to listen to my Thank Me Later album and that’s how we got to this ramble of a post.

Drake got to me like he always does. He gave me the confidence, energy, and serenity to buckle down and handle things like the boss that I am. When the little things add up to try and get you down, don’t let them. When life tries to stress you out and make you go crazy, do something that makes you happy.

Go for a run, text a friend, or listen to your favorite music.

It’s always the small things that can make or break you. You just have to decide which one of those it’s going to be.