Things I’ve Realized

Yesterday marked the halfway point on my 27th year of life. The 27th year of me doing things right, doing things wrong, and not having any idea where to start. How I’ve learned so many lessons in my most recent years, some good, some not so good, some life changing, and some I wished I knew earlier in life. I feel like your late 20’s are the years where you start to have those “ah-ha” moments. The moments where some of your life questions get answered and you feel like you’re getting a pat on the back from life. I started thinking of those moments that I’ve had, those things I’ve come to terms with at 27 and a half years of life.

1

I can’t stay up past 11:30 PM- That my friends, is being generous. I’m lucky if I stay up past ten on most nights. I’ve always thought that I was more of a morning person, but in the recent months I’ve realized that I’m 100 percent correct. This has some to do with being a new mom but it was that way before as well. I’ve had nights where I plan to stay up late enough to watch Saturday Night Live or Jimmy Fallon. I would turn on all of the lights, go get a sugary coffee drink, and do whatever else I could think of to stay up. I would literally fall asleep right before the show started every single time. I’m not a night owl, never will be.

2

I can’t please everyone- I’ve tried for many years with this one. I like making as many people as I can happy and I like to make sure everyone gets what they want. That’s tiring to say the least. It also sets you up for failure when you can’t make someone happy or when you upset them. It took me a few attempts to realize that no matter how much I try I can’t control the feelings of others. It’s not up to me if they’re happy with me or not and I have to be okay with that.

3

I love Pizza- I’ve really grown to love Pizza. I’ve always liked it, because hello I’m normal, but I’ve found a new love for it the last couple of years. I think it started when Jason and I went to New York for our honeymoon. We found this amazing pizza place and a piece of my heart will forever be there. This pizza gave me a whole new love for that beautiful dough topped with delicious cheese and sauce.

4

I have to pick and choose my battles- In case you didn’t know, I’m stubborn **Cue my family saying yupppp** and you can tell rather easily. I’ve always been the type of person to tell you when I don’t agree with you or when I’m mad at what you’re doing. If I didn’t like it, you could tell. Whether it was an eye roll or a disgusted sigh. I’ve come to realize that I can’t always do this, especially as an adult. I’m going to piss the wrong people off and it’ll lead to bad outcomes. Don’t get me wrong, if you’re passionate about something or have a strong belief in something don’t stop. Never give up your beliefs. But is it worth getting in an argument that involves your close friend and possibly having them upset with you. There are ways to discuss things that don’t have to result in arguments.

5

I am Buddy the Elf- I love Christmas. I could go on and on about how much I love Christmas. November 1st is when I press play on the Christmas music and start spreading the cheer. I’ve met people in the last couple of years who have told me to my face how dumb I am for loving Christmas so much, as early as I do, but I don’t care. It’s something I take so much joy in and I won’t let people crush my holiday spirit.

6

My gut is usually right- If I think something’s wrong, I need to speak up. If I have a bad feeling in my stomach, I need to do something about it. Trusting your gut is sometimes the best thing you can do. I’ve had moments where I’m sitting there thinking to myself “this isn’t right” and I didn’t speak up. Your gut will tell you if you’re in the wrong or not, if you have a bad feeling you should act on it.

7

Candle shopping is one of my favorite past times- The 2 for 22 candle sale at Bath and Body Works gives me life. I have to smell every single candle individually and really think about which candle I’m going to buy. I could be having the worst day ever, but I know that all I have to do is walk into a Bath and Body Works and my day can be fixed instantly.

8

There’s nothing How I Met Your Mother can’t fix- Everyone has a TV Show that makes you laugh. A show where you feel emotionally involved in the fake lives of the characters, for me it’s How I Met Your Mother. I started watching it a couple of years ago and I’ll never look back. I know that if I’m having a bad day, I need some background noise for cleaning, or if I’m just bored this show will boost my spirits one Ted Mosby bad relationship at a time.

9

It’s possible for your whole world to be 20 something pounds and covered in drool- I love my friends, family, and husband, but there’s a special love I have for my son. No matter what is happening in my life I know that at the end of the day he’ll be happy to see me. He’ll be there smiling and clapping his hands at anything and everything. Even when he throws his little fits I can’t get enough of him. my whole world is locked into one little person and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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I’m doing something right- I put a lot of pressure on myself, to do everything right and be as perfect as I can be. When things go wrong I take it personally. Sometimes I feel like I keep screwing things up. It’s normal. But there are little times where I’m reminded that I’m doing just fine. Last Wednesday I got a text from my dad saying he heard our song on the radio (Whitney Houston’s I wanna dance with somebody) and that he thought of me. I see him almost every day and talk to multiple times a day, yet one song made him think of me. It was my little reminder that I must be doing something right.

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Megan’s Month: June 2017

June2017

June was so good to me, and I know I say this every month, but I can’t believe it’s over already.

One month closer to Ian’s first birthday.

One month closer to Christmas.

One month closer to meeting my nephew.

I swear the older I get the month’s go by faster.

How do I make it stop?

There was something different about this month, it marked the end of an era.

The end of the first seven years of my twenties.

Pretty Little Liars ended.

All month I’ve been thinking about how much closer I was getting to the finale of Pretty Little Liars, I just kept doing what I do with a lot of things..thinking it’ll never actually happen until it does.

Tuesday rolled around and I texted my sister to come over and watch it with me, Ben and Jerry’s and all. She agreed, because who can turn down Ben and Jerry’s? The more the day passed the more I thought about it, a huge part of our twenties was almost over.

Seven years ago brings you back to the summer of 2010. Pretty Little Liars was coming back from their mid season break and I begged Janelle to start the show with me, at that point the only show I had ever been obsessed with was Lost, but I didn’t expect what would happen next.

Every Tuesday during the winter and summer for seven years Janelle and I would gather around the TV and watch the drama unfold in the town of Rosewood. We would get so into it, discussing fan theories as to who A was, and gasping when something dramatic happened..

which was always fyi. 

This show was the only show that Janelle and I watched exclusively together. It was our thing. Even when I moved out, she came over to watch it and when she didn’t come over we would text about what was unfolding. I didn’t realize until Tuesday just how big a part of our lives that show was.

It was our ritual, it was us.

I get super attached to things, and I hold on to them and the memories they make.

It’s what I do..and this was no exception.

I texted Janelle asking why I was so weirdly emotional about the ending of Pretty Little Liars.

Then it clicked, it was ending.

Our Tuesday ritual.

Yeah we have other shows, but that was the first. It was the first seven years of our twenties.

And after that two hour finale we would never get it back.

Yes I know..

I’m dedicating half of my monthly review to a teenage drama tv show..but it was such a big part of our lives.

It was our early adulthood turned into our late twenties.

It was all of our summer nights glued to the tv genuinely happy to be in that moment with each other.

Things will keep getting different sooner than  later.

Janelle will be a mom, and a great one at that, and we might not have that one show that captivates us as much as Pretty Little Liars did, and that’s ok.

I’ll always cherish those new memories and the ones we will soon make watching our sons grow up together less than a year apart in age.

I know it’ll be magical.

I just get so attached to the smallest things, holding onto them, fearing that things won’t be the same once they’re gone.

My favorite senior just graduated and I’m no longer her coach.

Ian is growing closer and closer to a year old and I can’t figure out how to pause it.

Time won’t slow down even though I keep asking.

That’s the most fascinating thing to me, how fast life happens.

I’ll never stop being amazed by it.

June brought more to me than just Pretty Little Listen, I promise.

June brought summer, and summer brings summer vacation. Jason gets to spend time with Ian and I can’t wait to hear about the days they’re going to have.

June reminded me how much I miss running, and the last week of the month was spent running every day.

June reminded me that I need to let go sometimes, that it’s okay.

Some other random things that I’ve been into this month..

The Office

Iced Coffees with Almond Milk

LANY

Running

Talking with my sister on the phone 

Hanging out with friends I haven’t seen in a while

Boomerangs on Instagram

Thank you June, thank you for reminding me that sometimes you can let go of things. That it doesn’t mean its the end, just the start of something new. Thank you for pushing me to start running again and giving me 80 degree days.

You da real MVP.

Soundtrack to June 2017…the entire LANY album because I’m obsessed and it’s seriously everything that I’ve listened to this month.

LANY

Quote of the Month:

“Life is a collection of moments.”