Two years ago I decided to do something.
Something that I had done once or twice before.
Something that was both exciting and terrifying at the same time.
Sharing my feelings with the world one blog post at a time.
Without knowing it, my best friend inspired me to start this blog.
She inspires me to do a lot in life.
Thanks best friend.
I think of the girl who started this blog two years ago.
The new mother.
The twenty six year girl, who despite what she thought, was really just starting to figure things out.
Crazy how that works huh?
You always think that you know everything at your current state in life.
When in reality, you’re always learning.
You’re always gaining these new experiences in life and meeting these new people.
You’re constantly growing.
You’re still making mistakes.
I thought I knew it all.
20 years old and I swore I knew what love was.
22 years and I thought a college degree meant that I knew everything.
24 years old and planning a wedding.
26 years old and becoming a new mother.
28 years old and finding out I have skin cancer.
Life absolutely blows my mind.
It’s beautiful really.
Just when you think you have it all figured out.
Just when you get comfortable.
Life comes up and gives you this curve ball.
It decides that you need to grow more.
That you’re doing just fine, but you could do better.
You could choose to dwell on it, or you could choose to do more.
You could choose to see it as an opportunity to grow.
You could choose to take it as a time to learn.
Even at 26 years old with a new baby boy I still thought that I knew it all.
Scrolling through my blog posts I can see so many examples of ways that I’ve grown.
I can see so many memories that make me smile from ear to ear.
So many new faces that were brought into my life that make it worth living.
I am so deeply in love with my life.
I’m so thankful for those heartbreaks I had growing up.
Those relationships that broke my heart in a million parts, helped me fall so madly in love with myself.
The millions of memories I have with my sister that could fill up an entire night sky.
The most loving and supportive parents a girl could ask for.
Those moments where I was so sad I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, make me remember why I pushed through the dark.
The five years of coaching the most hard working athletes. Seeing them at their lowest lows and their highest highs, makes me not able to even imagine them not in my life.
The moment I realized I loved Jason, the one moment that I was the most sure of anything in this entire world.
The moment I met my son and could feel my whole world coming together at once.
Life is so stunning.
It really truly is.
There are moments that will try to make you think differently.
They will try and change your mind.
With thoughts of self pity and sadness.
They will try and break you.
Don’t let them.
Remember why you’re still here.
Remember who you love and who loves you back.
Even if it’s just one person, it’s still love, and it’s still beautiful.
It still makes life worth living.
The love from one soul can change your life.
When I was younger I was so obsessed with the thought of love.
I thought the love from a boy would validate me as a person and would make me whole.
Little did I know that I had all of the love I ever needed right under my roof.
I saw this quote once that really stuck with me.
“Were all just walking each other home.”
In the end we all want the same thing.
We all want someone.
We all want love.
To make sure we feel comfort and protection.
To give us a hand to hold in the darkest of times.
To love with everything we have.
These two years of my blog are just a small portion of my life, a life that I am so in love with.
So thank you.
Thank you for reading my blog posts.
Thank you for allowing me to share my feelings with you.
Thank you for keeping up with my rambles fueled by LANY songs and coffee.
It fills up my heart knowing that you take a few minutes of your day to keep up with my thoughts.
Lets keep it going shall we?