Dear 17 year old me.

Megan,

BREAK UP WITH HIM.

Sorry I had to make sure you got that.

Can you believe you’re about to be a senior in High School?! Your last season of Cross Country is about to happen and after that Track.

This time next year you’ll be going to college.

It’s getting real.

I’m here, your twentyseven year old self, to tell you that you turn out just fine.

There will be some tough times this year, but you make it through.

Try your hardest not to worry what everyone thinks ok? You think you’re awesome and that’s enough. I know you’ve spent the last few months with someone that treats you like crap, but I’m here to tell you that if you dump him you’ll be much better off.

Think before you sign to a college. Look at your options and don’t just think you know everything. The one you end up choosing is fine while it lasts though. You’ll have a fantastic cross country season and meet some memorable people, but you end up attending the number two school after all. and you love it.

I also want to tell you to not do anything different when it comes to running, I don’t want anything to change the outcome of your final year of running for McKay.

Oh and you end up coaching there, and it’s one of the best decisions you’ll ever make.

Don’t skip class, except to go get Dutch Brothers with Janelle, those will be some of your favorite memories.

Speaking of Janelle, be nice to her. She’s way cooler than you think. Treat her like she’s your best friend because she is, and when she tells you that someones bad for you, listen. If you’re by Janelle tell her the same thing, as many times as you can.

Oh and Curtis. I know he’s going to be an obnoxious sophomore but he turns out to be one of your favorite people. Know that when he makes fun of you or gives you a hard time, it’s because he likes you…at least I’m pretty sure….that’s what I tell myself.

Give mom and dad a break, they really do want what’s best for you and are right most of the time. And stop bugging them about getting a dog, you’ll get one soon.

When you’re leaving work the day of the Chris Daughtry concert this summer, turn right on sunnyview not left.

When it comes to boys, just don’t date any of them. They’re so stupid in high school,  I know I sound like mom and dad but I’m being serious. You literally see none of them after high school anyways. One of them in particular gets you in a lot of trouble and adds so much unwanted stress in your life. Oh and all of them are stupid in College too.

Start watching Grey’s Anatomy, they’re only on season four. You’ll thank me later.

Do whatever it is you want to do. Don’t worry what’s cool or not, you end up wasting so much time doing that. Listen to your rap music, roll the windows down, and sing at the top of your lungs.

Oh that also reminds me, don’t be afraid to drive. Just suck it up and get over that fear.

Start reading the Harry Potter books and watch the movies as they come.

Spend as much time as you can with Grandpa.

Love yourself first.

I want to tell you that’s it all works itself out. Things fall apart and even better things fall into place. People will walk out of your life and it won’t matter in ten years, you’ll meet better ones. You’re going to make mistakes and wonderful decisions. Take as many pictures as you possibly can and remember the time you spend with friends.

If I could I would give you a huge hug right now, I know this summer is a big one. Just know to not second guess your gut. You have all of the answers, just do what you believe is right. Even if it doesn’t feel like it, I promise it all works itself out.

I’m proud of you Megan. Seriously.

You might not realize it at this very moment but you’re pretty awesome the way you are.

You are the only one that can limit your greatness, remember you are enough.

Oh, don’t worry about getting a locker in senior hall. I know how big of a deal it is but you get one I promise.

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A letter to my dad.

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Dad,

Thank you.

Not only today, but every day.

Thank you for raising me into the tough person I am today.

Thank you for teaching me to not take crap from anyone, and that if I really want something I have to work for it.

Because of you I have so much love for the Dodgers, good barbecue, and appreciation for all things reality TV.

Because of you, I know what a love between a parent and a child should look like.

I’ll always cherish those days when I was little and you would come to the rescue every time I had a scrape, with your handy first aid kit to save the day. You always made sure I left with a smile on my face and a sticker.

And one of my favorite times in my life was when I was working weird hours at work, it meant I got to spend the morning with you. Our morning walks with the dog were the best. I think that’s when our relationship got stronger. You turned into my best friend and you’ll always be.

I’ll never forget when you walked me down the isle.

I was all focused on making sure we walked out at the right moment to match the music and you just looked at me and said “lets take a selfie!” It’s probably one of my favorite pictures of us. I was scared to leave you and not have you to make fun of me every day, but when you let go of my hand I knew I would be able to do it, because you taught me that.

You taught me that I could do all things.

Big and small.

No matter how much I worried about what the outcome would be, you taught me that I could do anything.

I’ve graduated college, ran a marathon, and started my own little family.

All because you gave me the courage to do so.

I’ve heard so many times how alike you and I are, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I’m so proud to be just like you, and to be your daughter.

I’m so proud of everything you’ve accomplished in life and I’m excited to see what more you can do.

I’m especially proud of you as a coach.

I love the relationships you have with those kids and what you’ve made that program into in just 3 short years. You really are such a fantastic coach.

At the end of the day, you’re my dad.

My hilarious, strong willed, loving dad.

You’re also such a wonderful grandpa to Ian.

He doesn’t even know how lucky he is yet that you’re his grandpa, and when he does, I know the bond between you and him will be just as strong as ours if not stronger.

I hope today, if not every day, that you know how much you are loved.

By our family, by Ian, and by me.

You’re the strongest person I know and I am so lucky to get to call you my dad.

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Pinterest in Real Life: Candy Dipped Brownies

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I’m not a cook.

I try to cook.

Big difference.

Sometimes it turns out great and I’m pleasantly surprised.

Other times I get this weird looking mess that sometimes tastes good.

Pinterest has become my best friend in recent years, giving people like me hope. Sometimes they are a bust, but other times you’re left having something Instagram worthy.

I decided to start a new series on my blog called Pinterest in Real Life where I try something I find on Pinterest out in real life and see if it’s possible to make pizza in a crock pot.

I’m still a little hesitant on that one..

The other night I decided to make candy dipped brownies as my first Pinterest in Real Life experiment.

I love brownies.

It doesn’t matter what kind of brownies, I love them all. So let’s just say I was a little excited to try this one out.

For this recipe you’ll need..

2 sticks of butter
3 cups of semi sweet chocolate chips
1 cup granulated sugar
1 cup of brown sugar
2 tsp pure vanilla extract
5 eggs
1/2 tsp salt
2 TBSP cocoa powder
1 1/3 cup all purpose
1 cup white chocolate chips
A lot of patience
Anything that sounds good to dip your brownies in.

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First thing you want to do is preheat to 350 degrees.

While you wait, spray a 10×10 baking pan with cooking spray. Don’t forget this one, no one likes brownies stuck to the pan.

Also, don’t use anything bigger than a 10×10, a 9×9 would probably work but don’t try to be different. I thought a bigger pan would be fine but my brownies ended up being too thin.

In a microwave safe bowl melt together two sticks of butter (no one said it was going to be healthy) and 2 cups chocolate chips until they’re melted, mine took about 2 minutes in 30 second intervals.

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Once you have you’re pretty little chocolate mixture mix in sugar and brown sugar.

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After that pour in your vanilla.

Next step is to beat in five eggs, one at a time. I did two at a time and the last one standing got to be featured in my picture.

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In a separate bowl mix together the salt, cocoa powder, and flour.

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After that combine you’re chocolate delicious mixture with your dry ingredients.

Pour everything in your pan…a 10×10 not anything bigger.

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Bake that bad boy for about 30 minutes or until you can place a toothpick in the middle of it and nothing sticks to it.

Thanks mom and dad for that tip.

While the brownies are baking get all of your toppings out and pour them in different bowls.

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When finished baking, take your patience out of the fridge and use it.

Seriously.

Don’t rush.

If I would have waited overnight they might have actually looked like the Instagram picture.

Once they’re cool cut them into squares and cut those squares diagonally.

In two separate bowls melt together your left over chocolate chips and white chocolate chips, those are going to be what gets your candy to stick to the brownies.

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Once your chocolate is melted, begin dipping the brownies in chocolate and on to the candy. Place them on parchment paper, which I just realized the recipe said, and let them sit at room temperature for an hour or so. I put them in the fridge to try and get solid and that worked just fine too.

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This recipe was crazy, there was so much going on and my kitchen took a beating. Not to mention I had to clean baby bottles in the middle of this all and help my husband give a baby with a poopy diaper a bath.

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These didn’t look exactly like the picture but I learned that if I was to do them again, I would add a little more patience to the mix.

I really enjoyed it though, it was fun making a recipe knowing that if I messed up it really didn’t matter, that it would make my post even more interesting. It was fun making something with absolutely no expectations knowing that at least I had brownies at the end of the day!

If you think of something that would be fun to test out from Pinterest, let me know. Or if you want to be a taste tester, I’d take those too!

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Megan’s Month: May 2017

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The older I get the more I realize that days go by faster.

Experiences fly by just enough for you to take a picture, and next thing you know the year is almost over.

Everyone always told me before Ian was born to be careful because time flies by so fast.

I would just laugh, roll  my eyes, and assume I know everything like usual.

But I was wrong.

The next thing I know my little man is turning seven months old and I’m left wondering how it all went by so fast.

How my favorite track season ended.

How my little man is so close to crawling.

How some of my favorite kids will be graduating soon.

How I am inching closer and closer to 30.

Okay….maybe that was a bit dramatic but you get my point?

When I was in my early twenties time stood still. Breakups were the end of the world, work lasted forever, and tough workouts felt like they were going to kill me.

Now at 27, I’m left begging the hand on the clock to slow down.

Last night I was watching my son inches away from crawling and had this crazy thought, that there will be a time when my husband and I think to ourselves about when he couldn’t crawl.

That we’ll look at each other and say..

Remember when he couldn’t crawl.

Remember when he was so small he could fall asleep on our chest.

Remember when he couldn’t talk.

That these moments happening now, will be memories sooner than I can realize. That I’ll look back at these times in five years and think about how they just felt like yesterday.

I do that a lot.

Think about how just five years ago I was a senior in College about to embark on life.

How I swore that I knew everything, that my boyfriend at the time was the best thing ever, and how my parents knew nothing.

I was wrong.

About everything.

Just as much as I was wrong about what I thought I knew, I was wrong about time moving slow.

That has been my theme this month.

Time.

Time moving too fast.

Not enough time to get things done.

Making the best of the time you have.

Time, Time, Time.

The older I get the more I value time. More than I ever thought I would. When you’re younger you feel like you’re stuck in one spot forever, or that your biggest problem is so much bigger than it actually is.

But now that I’m getting older I realize that’s not the case.

Time doesn’t stand still, it goes by so fast. It’s so important to stop in the moment and remember everything about where you are and what you’re doing. Remember the people you’re with, the way you feel, and the sounds that you hear.

Remember it all.

I was so bummed out at the beginning of the month when I realized the track season was almost over.

I couldn’t believe my little guy was already seven months old.

I can’t believe it’s almost June and in a couple of weeks I have to see some of my favorite kids graduate.

I tried my best to really remember everything and everyone I was with in those moments, those moments that would soon be memories.

Those moments that I’ll look back on when my Freshman are Seniors and I’ll wonder how four years went by so fast.

Or when Ian’s has his first day of school and all I can think about was when he couldn’t even crawl yet.

Time has a funny way of sneaking up on you when least expect it, kind of like June did to me this month.

But I don’t hate it.

I’m excited to keep making memories and enjoying the moments I’m in.

I like time.

Here’s some other things that I’ve liked this month..

My new camera.

Family walks at the park.

Sex and the City.

Lifting Weights.

Not buying coffee as much.

Hurricane by Luke Combs.

I appreciate the month of May. I appreciate the great moments that led to memories, and the times that I wish time would have stood still. I appreciate all of the times I stopped to take a deep breath and really take in the moment as I was in it.

So thank you May.

Thank you for teaching me a lesson that I thought I had down.

Thank you for giving me so many memories.

Thank you for being so good to me.

Next time I write this we will be half way through the year, and that blows my mind.

I look forward to the next half of the year, but for now I’m going to try and really think about the moment I’m in. Appreciate everything and every one.

Soundtrack to May 2017:

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Quote of the month:

“Do more than just exist.”