Life has taken a complete 180, seriously. I went from someone who could get eight hours of sleep and leave the house in two minutes if needed, to someone who is responsible for another life. Babies are a whirlwind, a beautiful one, but a whirlwind none the less. I am finally getting around to starting this blog that I have been wanting to start since September. I use to have a blog a couple of years ago but I didn’t tell anyone. I would wonder “what if someone thinks it’s dumb” or “what if I get made fun of” and deleted it. I saved all of the post and figured that one day they might come in handy. Then one day, my favorite podcast started a blog and asked for fan submissions, I took a risk and figured the chances of anything getting accepted were pretty slim. A couple of weeks later I saw that I was tagged on Instagram in a post and noticed that they posted my story. I freaked out. You don’t even understand how bad I freaked out. I texted my husband and my sister and told them the news and they both said how proud they were of me. That was probably the biggest and most important thing, was that two people who I am proud of were proud of me. After an internal struggle with myself I decided to post a link to the article on my Facebook and got some super nice responses, the ones I really cared about were from my parents. I had recently been feeling like I didn’t have something that was just mine, an outlet for me to pour my heart into and be creative with. I realized at that moment that it was time to start my blog up again. I had prepared the site and was ready to start posting when we found out that my son came into this world. Suddenly life was completely different. I find myself up two to three times in the middle of the night rocking him to sleep and changing multiple diapers at a time with my husband by my side. Life is completely different and I couldn’t be happier.
Now where does my blog fit into all of this? I have so many ideas and I am so excited to see where life takes me and where this blog fits into the picture. I have lots of ideas floating around in my head, and written down on my phone, I cannot wait to get it all out of my mind and into the world. I, by no means have anything close to figured out and I’m sure I will make some mistakes along the way of this carousel called life (Grey’s reference you’re welcome) but I am so excited to finally commit to this and give it my all. I am truly bummed that I gave up the first time around and hid due to the fear of what others might have thought, but as my best friend once told me, as made famous by Dr. Seuss, “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”