Things I’ve Realized

Yesterday marked the halfway point on my 27th year of life. The 27th year of me doing things right, doing things wrong, and not having any idea where to start. How I’ve learned so many lessons in my most recent years, some good, some not so good, some life changing, and some I wished I knew earlier in life. I feel like your late 20’s are the years where you start to have those “ah-ha” moments. The moments where some of your life questions get answered and you feel like you’re getting a pat on the back from life. I started thinking of those moments that I’ve had, those things I’ve come to terms with at 27 and a half years of life.

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I can’t stay up past 11:30 PM- That my friends, is being generous. I’m lucky if I stay up past ten on most nights. I’ve always thought that I was more of a morning person, but in the recent months I’ve realized that I’m 100 percent correct. This has some to do with being a new mom but it was that way before as well. I’ve had nights where I plan to stay up late enough to watch Saturday Night Live or Jimmy Fallon. I would turn on all of the lights, go get a sugary coffee drink, and do whatever else I could think of to stay up. I would literally fall asleep right before the show started every single time. I’m not a night owl, never will be.

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I can’t please everyone- I’ve tried for many years with this one. I like making as many people as I can happy and I like to make sure everyone gets what they want. That’s tiring to say the least. It also sets you up for failure when you can’t make someone happy or when you upset them. It took me a few attempts to realize that no matter how much I try I can’t control the feelings of others. It’s not up to me if they’re happy with me or not and I have to be okay with that.

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I love Pizza- I’ve really grown to love Pizza. I’ve always liked it, because hello I’m normal, but I’ve found a new love for it the last couple of years. I think it started when Jason and I went to New York for our honeymoon. We found this amazing pizza place and a piece of my heart will forever be there. This pizza gave me a whole new love for that beautiful dough topped with delicious cheese and sauce.

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I have to pick and choose my battles- In case you didn’t know, I’m stubborn **Cue my family saying yupppp** and you can tell rather easily. I’ve always been the type of person to tell you when I don’t agree with you or when I’m mad at what you’re doing. If I didn’t like it, you could tell. Whether it was an eye roll or a disgusted sigh. I’ve come to realize that I can’t always do this, especially as an adult. I’m going to piss the wrong people off and it’ll lead to bad outcomes. Don’t get me wrong, if you’re passionate about something or have a strong belief in something don’t stop. Never give up your beliefs. But is it worth getting in an argument that involves your close friend and possibly having them upset with you. There are ways to discuss things that don’t have to result in arguments.

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I am Buddy the Elf- I love Christmas. I could go on and on about how much I love Christmas. November 1st is when I press play on the Christmas music and start spreading the cheer. I’ve met people in the last couple of years who have told me to my face how dumb I am for loving Christmas so much, as early as I do, but I don’t care. It’s something I take so much joy in and I won’t let people crush my holiday spirit.

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My gut is usually right- If I think something’s wrong, I need to speak up. If I have a bad feeling in my stomach, I need to do something about it. Trusting your gut is sometimes the best thing you can do. I’ve had moments where I’m sitting there thinking to myself “this isn’t right” and I didn’t speak up. Your gut will tell you if you’re in the wrong or not, if you have a bad feeling you should act on it.

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Candle shopping is one of my favorite past times- The 2 for 22 candle sale at Bath and Body Works gives me life. I have to smell every single candle individually and really think about which candle I’m going to buy. I could be having the worst day ever, but I know that all I have to do is walk into a Bath and Body Works and my day can be fixed instantly.

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There’s nothing How I Met Your Mother can’t fix- Everyone has a TV Show that makes you laugh. A show where you feel emotionally involved in the fake lives of the characters, for me it’s How I Met Your Mother. I started watching it a couple of years ago and I’ll never look back. I know that if I’m having a bad day, I need some background noise for cleaning, or if I’m just bored this show will boost my spirits one Ted Mosby bad relationship at a time.

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It’s possible for your whole world to be 20 something pounds and covered in drool- I love my friends, family, and husband, but there’s a special love I have for my son. No matter what is happening in my life I know that at the end of the day he’ll be happy to see me. He’ll be there smiling and clapping his hands at anything and everything. Even when he throws his little fits I can’t get enough of him. my whole world is locked into one little person and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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I’m doing something right- I put a lot of pressure on myself, to do everything right and be as perfect as I can be. When things go wrong I take it personally. Sometimes I feel like I keep screwing things up. It’s normal. But there are little times where I’m reminded that I’m doing just fine. Last Wednesday I got a text from my dad saying he heard our song on the radio (Whitney Houston’s I wanna dance with somebody) and that he thought of me. I see him almost every day and talk to multiple times a day, yet one song made him think of me. It was my little reminder that I must be doing something right.

Megan’s Month: July 2017

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Oh July..such a good month..why’d you have to go so fast?

I’ve been looking forward to July for a couple of months now..

My sisters baby shower, another major league baseball game, the fourth of July, our annual trip to California, this month was packed with things to do and I was so excited.

I really love the summer, although everyone in my life knows how much I love the fall time, summer has a special place in my heart.

Summer is the time that my husband and sister get some well deserved time off, when you see families walking around the neighborhoods and playing together outside, and when you can stay up late and the sun stays up with you.

July started off with a bang..I watched 6 seasons of Game of Thrones in 16 days.

Exciting stuff I know.

I tried watching it last summer and gave up after a few episodes because it was super hard to follow. Knowing that one of the last seasons was premiering soon and that my husband loves it I decided to give it one more try, and if I still wasn’t sold I would just give it up. Needless to say that after the end of season one I was hooked.

Now I look forward to Sunday nights watching it with my husband, its turning into one of my favorite things.

We got to take a day trip to Seattle on the 9th, and cross another stadium off of my list. In case you’re new to the party, my goal in life is to see a game at every baseball stadium and buy a hat.

My fantastic family watched Ian for the day while we took this trip and I was so thankful. Jason and I hadn’t been away from Ian that long and knowing he was in good hands made it so much easier. It was so nice to just drive and talk to Jason about anything and everything. Besides the insane sunburn I got, the trip was definitely a great one!

The biggest thing this month however, was our trip to California to visit Jason’s family. This trip has become an annual thing and always a highlight of our summer. This year was different though, it was the first with Ian! I was nervous for the flight, not because of Ian though, that kid is a champ, but because of myself.

I hate flying.

I hate flying so much.

But something about flying with Ian and knowing I had to help and comfort him made me handle this plane ride better than I ever had. It could be the fact that the trip is never more than an hour and a half down to Oakland, or the fact that Jason is always great to have by my side, but I deserved a gold star for this one.

This was our first trip down where we got to see every member of the family and see everyone we planned on seeing. I know it’s important for Jason to get to see his family but its so important for Ian as well. I want him to grow up and be excited every year to go visit the Zellicks in California, I want him to see the importance in it and be excited to travel and see new the world. I want him to have this great attitude towards everything and be excited to do new things and meet new people.

And he already is.

This kid approaches everything with a smile and optimism and I am so in awe of it. He inspires me every day.

I want to approach things like Ian, and this month I did.

I want to continue to be hopeful, excited, and optimistic.

Like Ian.

That’s what this month taught me, to be optimistic.

To approach things with a smile and a good attitude.

I was so excited for July and to go on these different trips, to make new memories and to not spend the whole time worrying.

I was nervous to leave Ian for a whole day, but I knew that he was in good hands and ended up crossing something off of my bucket list.

I gave a show a chance and it ended up being one of my favorites to date.

I took a plane with my family to go visit more family and it turned out to be our best trip yet.

If you have an optimistic attitude, great things can happen.

That was my theme this month.

Optimism.

That might seem like common sense to a lot of people but to someone like me who  tends to worry about things I can’t control its more difficult.

Some other things I loved this month..

Friends from College on Netflix

Making coffee at home

Working out more

My nose piercing

Weekend walks with Jason and Ian

Big Brother..like every other summer..

I don’t have any music that I was loving this month, because every day while I was at work I was listening to podcasts. I was either listening to The Lady Gang or the Fantasy Footballers…I know I know..two completely different podcasts but August is around the corner and I take fantasy football very seriously.

This August I challenge you to try something new. Try something that you’re afraid of or might have doubts about. Close your eyes and jump into the unknown, because if you do, great things can happen.

Quote of the Month:

“Always believe that something wonderful is about to happen.”

 

Age is just a number.

 

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“You’re only old if you think you’re old.”

Some wise words spoken from my best friend recently while texting each other. She had sent me a screenshot of a Facebook memory of us from three years ago, we were both in awe of the fact that it was three years ago. It felt like just yesterday.

I responded with “I feel so old” a phrase I’ve said so frequently in my twenties, and that was when she hit me with some truth.

You’re only old if you think you’re old.

Her words stuck with me.

Especially in a situation that came up last week.

I wanted to get my nose pierced and I asked my mom to come with me, with an ulterior motive to try and get her to have it done as well because I knew the thought was in her mind.

She was nervous.

Not for the pain or anything like that.

She was nervous because she thought she was too old for it.

My mom is so many things, but old isn’t one of them.

My sister and I were trying to convince her otherwise when the woman doing our piercings spoke up and told us that she just pierced the belly button of a 78 year old woman the other week..

and to do whatever you want and f*** what anyone else thinks.

Words of a genius if you ask me.

My mom ended up getting it done and let me just say she looks fantastic, she realized how much she wanted it done and that it was worth it to not worry about how she would look to other people.

Hearing that a 78 year old woman got her belly button pierced amazes me. I love knowing that someone at that age still feels young and is so happy with themselves and just wants to pierce her belly button. She didn’t care what anyone else thought, she just did it.

I hate the thought of people thinking they’re too old to do something, but there I was calling myself old to my best friend, and I’m only 27.

I have so many years ahead of me to do whatever I want.

Great things, stupid things, big things, small things.

And I’m not too old to do any of them.

I’m not going to book a flight tomorrow to a different city just because. I have priorities, but they don’t make me old.

I think one of the reasons we worry about how old we are on a daily basis, is that we get so caught up in our daily “grown up” tasks.

Working 40 hours a week, changing poopy diapers, maintaining the over flowing laundry basket, or paying student loans.

All things that are necessary to get through the day, but aren’t things that should make you feel old. Tired, but not old.

Since when did getting older make us old?

The older I get, the more responsibilities I have, but that’s something that comes with growing up. It shouldn’t hold you back from doing whatever it is that you want to do.

If you want to go skydiving, go skydiving.

If you want to listen to the Frozen Soundtrack all day, listen to the Frozen Soundtrack all day.

If you want to get a tattoo, go get a tattoo.

If you want to go back to school, go back to school.

I don’t think anyone’s too old to do anything, I think it’s the mindset that you feel old.

 That you have to live up to this thought that since you’re getting old you have to act old. That life gets too busy and hard so you simply can’t get out of your comfort zone and do something that you feel you might be too old for.

It feels good.

To feel young.

To forget your age and do whatever you want simply because you want to do it.

I swear sometimes I still feel 22, and that’s what I told my best friend when I was telling her how old I felt.

Her response?

“Then 22 it is, T Swift and all.”

If you feel 22 but you’re really 27 what’s wrong with that?

You still have those daily life things that happen but what happens when you’re done with them? Nothings holding you back from doing whatever you want, especially not your age. You just have to do it.

Drive with your music loud and sing terribly.

Sign up to take a new class for something you’ve never done before.

Stay up late and watch Netflix till you get that “are you still watching” message.

Laugh all night until your stomach hurts.

Go get your belly button pierced.

Sometimes it’s fun to forget your age every once in a while.

Give it a try.

 

Megan’s Month: June 2017

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June was so good to me, and I know I say this every month, but I can’t believe it’s over already.

One month closer to Ian’s first birthday.

One month closer to Christmas.

One month closer to meeting my nephew.

I swear the older I get the month’s go by faster.

How do I make it stop?

There was something different about this month, it marked the end of an era.

The end of the first seven years of my twenties.

Pretty Little Liars ended.

All month I’ve been thinking about how much closer I was getting to the finale of Pretty Little Liars, I just kept doing what I do with a lot of things..thinking it’ll never actually happen until it does.

Tuesday rolled around and I texted my sister to come over and watch it with me, Ben and Jerry’s and all. She agreed, because who can turn down Ben and Jerry’s? The more the day passed the more I thought about it, a huge part of our twenties was almost over.

Seven years ago brings you back to the summer of 2010. Pretty Little Liars was coming back from their mid season break and I begged Janelle to start the show with me, at that point the only show I had ever been obsessed with was Lost, but I didn’t expect what would happen next.

Every Tuesday during the winter and summer for seven years Janelle and I would gather around the TV and watch the drama unfold in the town of Rosewood. We would get so into it, discussing fan theories as to who A was, and gasping when something dramatic happened..

which was always fyi. 

This show was the only show that Janelle and I watched exclusively together. It was our thing. Even when I moved out, she came over to watch it and when she didn’t come over we would text about what was unfolding. I didn’t realize until Tuesday just how big a part of our lives that show was.

It was our ritual, it was us.

I get super attached to things, and I hold on to them and the memories they make.

It’s what I do..and this was no exception.

I texted Janelle asking why I was so weirdly emotional about the ending of Pretty Little Liars.

Then it clicked, it was ending.

Our Tuesday ritual.

Yeah we have other shows, but that was the first. It was the first seven years of our twenties.

And after that two hour finale we would never get it back.

Yes I know..

I’m dedicating half of my monthly review to a teenage drama tv show..but it was such a big part of our lives.

It was our early adulthood turned into our late twenties.

It was all of our summer nights glued to the tv genuinely happy to be in that moment with each other.

Things will keep getting different sooner than  later.

Janelle will be a mom, and a great one at that, and we might not have that one show that captivates us as much as Pretty Little Liars did, and that’s ok.

I’ll always cherish those new memories and the ones we will soon make watching our sons grow up together less than a year apart in age.

I know it’ll be magical.

I just get so attached to the smallest things, holding onto them, fearing that things won’t be the same once they’re gone.

My favorite senior just graduated and I’m no longer her coach.

Ian is growing closer and closer to a year old and I can’t figure out how to pause it.

Time won’t slow down even though I keep asking.

That’s the most fascinating thing to me, how fast life happens.

I’ll never stop being amazed by it.

June brought more to me than just Pretty Little Listen, I promise.

June brought summer, and summer brings summer vacation. Jason gets to spend time with Ian and I can’t wait to hear about the days they’re going to have.

June reminded me how much I miss running, and the last week of the month was spent running every day.

June reminded me that I need to let go sometimes, that it’s okay.

Some other random things that I’ve been into this month..

The Office

Iced Coffees with Almond Milk

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Running

Talking with my sister on the phone 

Hanging out with friends I haven’t seen in a while

Boomerangs on Instagram

Thank you June, thank you for reminding me that sometimes you can let go of things. That it doesn’t mean its the end, just the start of something new. Thank you for pushing me to start running again and giving me 80 degree days.

You da real MVP.

Soundtrack to June 2017…the entire LANY album because I’m obsessed and it’s seriously everything that I’ve listened to this month.

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Quote of the Month:

“Life is a collection of moments.”

Dear 17 year old me.

Megan,

BREAK UP WITH HIM.

Sorry I had to make sure you got that.

Can you believe you’re about to be a senior in High School?! Your last season of Cross Country is about to happen and after that Track.

This time next year you’ll be going to college.

It’s getting real.

I’m here, your twenty seven year old self, to tell you that you turn out just fine.

There will be some tough times this year, but you make it through.

Try your hardest not to worry what everyone thinks ok? You think you’re awesome and that’s enough. I know you’ve spent the last few months with someone that treats you like crap, but I’m here to tell you that if you dump him you’ll be much better off.

Think before you sign to a college. Look at your options and don’t just think you know everything. The one you end up choosing is fine while it lasts though. You’ll have a fantastic cross country season and meet some memorable people, but you end up attending the number two school after all. and you love it.

I also want to tell you to not do anything different when it comes to running, I don’t want anything to change the outcome of your final year of running for McKay.

Oh and you end up coaching there, and it’s one of the best decisions you’ll ever make.

Don’t skip class, except to go get Dutch Brothers with Janelle, those will be some of your favorite memories.

Speaking of Janelle, be nice to her. She’s way cooler than you think. Treat her like she’s your best friend because she is, and when she tells you that someones bad for you, listen. If you’re by Janelle tell her the same thing, as many times as you can.

Oh and Curtis. I know he’s going to be an obnoxious sophomore but he turns out to be one of your favorite people. Know that when he makes fun of you or gives you a hard time, it’s because he likes you…at least I’m pretty sure….that’s what I tell myself.

Give mom and dad a break, they really do want what’s best for you and are right most of the time. And stop bugging them about getting a dog, you’ll get one soon.

When you’re leaving work the day of the Chris Daughtry concert this summer, turn right on sunnyview not left.

When it comes to boys, just don’t date any of them. They’re so stupid in high school,  I know I sound like mom and dad but I’m being serious. You literally see none of them after high school anyways. One of them in particular gets you in a lot of trouble and adds so much unwanted stress in your life. Oh and all of them are stupid in College too.

Start watching Grey’s Anatomy, they’re only on season four. You’ll thank me later.

Do whatever it is you want to do. Don’t worry what’s cool or not, you end up wasting so much time doing that. Listen to your rap music, roll the windows down, and sing at the top of your lungs.

Oh that also reminds me, don’t be afraid to drive. Just suck it up and get over that fear.

Start reading the Harry Potter books and watch the movies as they come.

Spend as much time as you can with Grandpa.

Love yourself first.

I want to tell you that’s it all works itself out. Things fall apart and even better things fall into place. People will walk out of your life and it won’t matter in ten years, you’ll meet better ones. You’re going to make mistakes and wonderful decisions. Take as many pictures as you possibly can and remember the time you spend with friends.

If I could I would give you a huge hug right now, I know this summer is a big one. Just know to not second guess your gut. You have all of the answers, just do what you believe is right. Even if it doesn’t feel like it, I promise it all works itself out.

I’m proud of you Megan. Seriously.

You might not realize it at this very moment but you’re pretty awesome the way you are.

You are the only one that can limit your greatness, remember you are enough.

Oh, don’t worry about getting a locker in senior hall. I know how big of a deal it is but you get one I promise.

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A letter to my dad.

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Dad,

Thank you.

Not only today, but every day.

Thank you for raising me into the tough person I am today.

Thank you for teaching me to not take crap from anyone, and that if I really want something I have to work for it.

Because of you I have so much love for the Dodgers, good barbecue, and appreciation for all things reality TV.

Because of you, I know what a love between a parent and a child should look like.

I’ll always cherish those days when I was little and you would come to the rescue every time I had a scrape, with your handy first aid kit to save the day. You always made sure I left with a smile on my face and a sticker.

And one of my favorite times in my life was when I was working weird hours at work, it meant I got to spend the morning with you. Our morning walks with the dog were the best. I think that’s when our relationship got stronger. You turned into my best friend and you’ll always be.

I’ll never forget when you walked me down the isle.

I was all focused on making sure we walked out at the right moment to match the music and you just looked at me and said “lets take a selfie!” It’s probably one of my favorite pictures of us. I was scared to leave you and not have you to make fun of me every day, but when you let go of my hand I knew I would be able to do it, because you taught me that.

You taught me that I could do all things.

Big and small.

No matter how much I worried about what the outcome would be, you taught me that I could do anything.

I’ve graduated college, ran a marathon, and started my own little family.

All because you gave me the courage to do so.

I’ve heard so many times how alike you and I are, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I’m so proud to be just like you, and to be your daughter.

I’m so proud of everything you’ve accomplished in life and I’m excited to see what more you can do.

I’m especially proud of you as a coach.

I love the relationships you have with those kids and what you’ve made that program into in just 3 short years. You really are such a fantastic coach.

At the end of the day, you’re my dad.

My hilarious, strong willed, loving dad.

You’re also such a wonderful grandpa to Ian.

He doesn’t even know how lucky he is yet that you’re his grandpa, and when he does, I know the bond between you and him will be just as strong as ours if not stronger.

I hope today, if not every day, that you know how much you are loved.

By our family, by Ian, and by me.

You’re the strongest person I know and I am so lucky to get to call you my dad.

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Pinterest in Real Life: Candy Dipped Brownies

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I’m not a cook.

I try to cook.

Big difference.

Sometimes it turns out great and I’m pleasantly surprised.

Other times I get this weird looking mess that sometimes tastes good.

Pinterest has become my best friend in recent years, giving people like me hope. Sometimes they are a bust, but other times you’re left having something Instagram worthy.

I decided to start a new series on my blog called Pinterest in Real Life where I try something I find on Pinterest out in real life and see if it’s possible to make pizza in a crock pot.

I’m still a little hesitant on that one..

The other night I decided to make candy dipped brownies as my first Pinterest in Real Life experiment.

I love brownies.

It doesn’t matter what kind of brownies, I love them all. So let’s just say I was a little excited to try this one out.

For this recipe you’ll need..

2 sticks of butter
3 cups of semi sweet chocolate chips
1 cup granulated sugar
1 cup of brown sugar
2 tsp pure vanilla extract
5 eggs
1/2 tsp salt
2 TBSP cocoa powder
1 1/3 cup all purpose
1 cup white chocolate chips
A lot of patience
Anything that sounds good to dip your brownies in.

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First thing you want to do is preheat to 350 degrees.

While you wait, spray a 10×10 baking pan with cooking spray. Don’t forget this one, no one likes brownies stuck to the pan.

Also, don’t use anything bigger than a 10×10, a 9×9 would probably work but don’t try to be different. I thought a bigger pan would be fine but my brownies ended up being too thin.

In a microwave safe bowl melt together two sticks of butter (no one said it was going to be healthy) and 2 cups chocolate chips until they’re melted, mine took about 2 minutes in 30 second intervals.

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Once you have you’re pretty little chocolate mixture mix in sugar and brown sugar.

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After that pour in your vanilla.

Next step is to beat in five eggs, one at a time. I did two at a time and the last one standing got to be featured in my picture.

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In a separate bowl mix together the salt, cocoa powder, and flour.

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After that combine you’re chocolate delicious mixture with your dry ingredients.

Pour everything in your pan…a 10×10 not anything bigger.

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Bake that bad boy for about 30 minutes or until you can place a toothpick in the middle of it and nothing sticks to it.

Thanks mom and dad for that tip.

While the brownies are baking get all of your toppings out and pour them in different bowls.

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When finished baking, take your patience out of the fridge and use it.

Seriously.

Don’t rush.

If I would have waited overnight they might have actually looked like the Instagram picture.

Once they’re cool cut them into squares and cut those squares diagonally.

In two separate bowls melt together your left over chocolate chips and white chocolate chips, those are going to be what gets your candy to stick to the brownies.

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Once your chocolate is melted, begin dipping the brownies in chocolate and on to the candy. Place them on parchment paper, which I just realized the recipe said, and let them sit at room temperature for an hour or so. I put them in the fridge to try and get solid and that worked just fine too.

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This recipe was crazy, there was so much going on and my kitchen took a beating. Not to mention I had to clean baby bottles in the middle of this all and help my husband give a baby with a poopy diaper a bath.

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These didn’t look exactly like the picture but I learned that if I was to do them again, I would add a little more patience to the mix.

I really enjoyed it though, it was fun making a recipe knowing that if I messed up it really didn’t matter, that it would make my post even more interesting. It was fun making something with absolutely no expectations knowing that at least I had brownies at the end of the day!

If you think of something that would be fun to test out from Pinterest, let me know. Or if you want to be a taste tester, I’d take those too!

OG Recipe here!